One Year Sober

“Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.”

It has been an emotional roller coaster the last few days leading up to this momentous occasion. One year ago I couldn’t imagine what this day would be like, or fathom the person I could become in 365 days. Thankfully I didn’t have to imagine any of that. I just had to stay in the day, at times just in the moment. I had to not drink and I had to do some big work on myself.

What It Was Like

A year ago, I was a broken soul seeking pain and running from pleasure. I’m not talking about the kind of pleasure that two glasses of wine, a donut, or a good-looking man bring you. This is the kind of pleasure and joy that is derived from being loved by the right kind of people or the pleasure of knowing that you’re being a productive, contributing, and stable human being. Nothing overtly bad happened to make me desire sobriety. I was just tired of running. I was tired of making excuses for why I had become the person that I was. Mostly I was tired of not being the person I pretended to be and truly desired to be like.

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Podcast Episode 23: Dain Sandoval

Dain Sandoval is originally from San Diego, but has called Chico home since 1998. He has had an illustrious past in radio as the Program Director of 106.7 ZRock. He handles websites and technical work for Everyday Paleo‘s Sarah Fragoso. He began experimenting with Paleo while training with Robb Wolf in 2006. Dain was 220 pounds and wearing size 44 pants. He was also in a deep battle with alcoholism. He realized he had to change his lifestyle or likely be dead  30. Through practical application of Paleo living in addition to physical training and a program of recovery he says he now wears size 31 pants and is generally a nicer person to be around. He has been clean and sober since Feb 19, 2007.

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Chasing The High

The summer before I started high school, I watched the movie Top Gun at least 200 times. It was one of two VHS tapes that didn’t bore me at my dad’s house, where I was spending the summer. I lived vicariously through Maverick and Goose. I wanted to fly those planes because I knew even back then that there had to be a high in that. I will fill you in on a small, but possibly important detail. At that point in my life, I had never even been on a commercial plane. But I was addicted to the idea of a thrill and I wanted it.

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Podcast Episode 19: Orleatha Smith-Weight Loss Surgery & Addiction

This week we welcome wife and home schooling mother to two elementary school children, Orleatha Smith. She is a C.H.E.K trained Holistic Lifestyle Coach and holds a degree in secondary science education, a biology teaching credential, Master’s degree in Education. She’s been featured in popular magazines such as First For Women and in The Paleo Miracle: 50 Real Stories of Health Transformation as well as a variety of health and wellness related blogs.

Orleatha had bypass surgery and now councils others to change their lives after they’ve had weight loss surgery. We talk about the relationship between weight loss surgery and increased rates of addiction and alcoholism and how to prevent it.

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Podcast Episode 18: Health Conference Tips

Susan returns from Austin, Texas where she spent last weekend at the Paleo FX conference. In this week’s show she shares her experiences at the conference and tells us her favorite take aways.

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Mindfulness When Tragedy Strikes

Recently we had a mindfulness podcast episode where we talked about feeling all of the feels when they happen. As alcoholics and addicts this has to be a constant work in progress. We learned to numb our feelings for so long that it can feel uncomfortable and foreign to suddenly force ourselves to feel them. Learning how to successfully feel everything is crucial to staying sober. I kept thinking about that all weekend after tragedy struck. On Saturday, nearly 4,000 people died because of an earthquake in Nepal. It reminded me of another tragedy almost 14 years ago.

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Podcast Episode 17: Mindfulness

We like to call this episode “The Feelings Show.” We discuss learning to feel everything from joy to pain without self-medicating. We also talk about the role of mindfulness in living sober.

Show Topics:

Coping Skills

Brené Brown

Momastery – Pain Is Not A Mistake

Dialectical Behavior Therapy

How To Avoid a Near Life Experience

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Are You Sober If You Take Mental Health Drugs?

I was sober for three years when I got pregnant the first time. I was also on mental health medications that I didn’t feel safe taking during pregnancy so I weaned off of them. They had never worked well anyway because I was wrongly diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Instead of seeking out better help and finding the right medications and right diagnosis, I demonized mental health medication and vowed never to use it again. I ended up letting go of my sobriety a year later and white knuckling through the ups and downs of my diseases (mental health and addiction) for the next decade.

I spent years trying every natural concoction for mental health. Juicing, smoothies, supplements, yoga, herbs, and some wild berry from some rain forest that claimed to be the cure all. There was no end to the lengths I would go to feel sane as long as it was “natural.” Every time I hoped the next thing would be the thing that would fix me, but it never did. I just ended up having severe mood swings.

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Podcast Episode 13: Darryl Edwards The Fitness Explorer

Darryl Edwards (The Fitness Explorer) is the creator of the PRIMAL PLAY training system, and world-renowned as an expert, teacher and lecturer on the Paleo lifestyle.  He’s a certified personal trainer and Paleo nutritionist holding a diverse range of certifications. Darryl combines his many influences from martial arts, parkour and dance to teach groups, conduct one-to-one training and virtual training sessions that focus on strength/conditioning, bodyweight exercises, Paleo nutrition and Play.  He lives in London, England.
On this week’s show, we talk about how giving up the things that don’t serve us in health really isn’t about giving anything up at all. It’s actually about gaining so much more. Darryl gives us lots of tips of how we can work play into our lives to create a more childlike, stress-free existence.

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Podcast Episode 12: Q & A

Susan and Kendall answer your questions in this week’s episode of Evolved Recovery.

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